My baby will be here THIS month!!!!!!

It just hit me. I looked at the calendar and it says MAY 1st and I just got very emotional and started to cry!

I can't believe it... baby boy will be here THIS month. He's going to be born, I'm going to get to hear him cry, I'm going to get to see his face -- THIS month.

It's still so hard to believe that after all this time... after all the IUI's, after the IVF cycles, after my FET's, after my crazy pregnancy bleedings / worries, after all the high risk pregnancy related complications... my baby will be born THIS month.

This is really happening.

I know in my mind that he's coming and my body is a constant reminder that I'm actually pregnant... But there's still a part of me that is just awe struck at all of this and I still can't believe that he's going to be here THIS month. I'm going to get to hold him and smell him and snuggle him and give him kisses.

My emotions are just crazy right now. I've spent so much of my pregnancy time worrying and stressed and scared of something happening to my baby boy. To be THIS close is surreal... and amazing... and unbelievable... and just so heart warming.

My new son will be born THIS month. This child that I've dreamed about, prayed for, hoped for -- will finally be welcomed into the world and into my family.

It's an amazing feeling just thinking about it. He's going to be here so very soon, my little miracle boy. My heart feels so full right now.